Knowledge is Power

01/31/24

I know I may never know,

What you have gone through.

I know that things are not always,

As they seem.

I know what it feels like,

To feel voiceless and quiet.

I know how it feels,

To be tiny, helpless,

And never enough.

I know how it feels,

To need a hand.

I know how it feels,

To try and run from yourself. 

But eventually,

You get stuck somewhere in the middle,

Where there is no right, 

And there is no left. 

I know how it feels,

To have the world in the palm of your hand,

But at what cost? 

I don't think anything was ever worth my life. 

I know what it feels like,

To be pat on the back,

As you slowly turn into a skeleton. 

I know what it feels like,

To finally cry,

To finally ask for help.

Believe it or not,

That was the hardest part. 

But I also know what it feels like,

To be surrounded by people,

Who feel helpless. 

I know what it feels like,

To be a burden,

To take up too much space. 

I know what it feels like,

To fight for your health.

And know,

There is absolutely no winning. 

I know what it feels like,

To have quitting be your last resort.

I know what it feels,

To allow yourself to quit,

Even when quitting, 

Made you feel empty. 

I know how it feels,

To be empowered.

I know how it feels,

To empower others.

I know how it feels,

To live 1 million lives,

At only 22 years old.

I know how it feels,

To meet someone where they are.

I know how it feels,

To be a widow with wrinkles,

Even though I am not a widow,

And I don’t have wrinkles. 

I know how it feels,

 to advocate for what you believe. 

I know how it feels,

To have abundance.

I know how it feels,

To have an education at my fingertips,

And a lifetime of experience, 

Even though,

I may still be young.

I know how it feels,

To be completely,

 and utterly,

Thankful for me.